you're beautiful

waiting for my rocket to come

9:37 PM;
and the camera clicked away

a meat affair

just a week ago we met
and today was another one of those days
but today was extra special
a feast of meat till it was on overload
we ordered to our heart's content
all 4 of us
and for jenny..where the hell did your salad diet go
hahaha
dinner by the beach.. a true meat affair

i miss the sight of seeing your car drive up
i miss seeing your name appear when you call
or the simple messages to see how i was
the whispers in the ears
or how your used lightly brush your skin against mine
the grasp i had over your arms
the tight hugs till my ears rested on your heartbeat
and how you always wore my fav shirt of yours
i saw the best of you and you made the best of me

11:40 PM;
and the camera clicked away

failure

I swear I am gonna have a breakdown soon
From all this workload that I have to get done
And the so called best thing is I have no idea
How to even do my ASSignment and the even better part
No one is doing the ASSignment at this moment
Coz its due in donkey years
So why am I doing it and stressing myself?

Learn to take off before you can fly.

Somebody help..anybody..
i'm on ends

9:40 PM;
and the camera clicked away

i miss this lil bald rapster.
they grow up so fast.

1:40 PM;
and the camera clicked away

I've changed because I wanted to

can the very people who are your friends be the one who holds you back from what you wanted simply because they wanted to be your only source of attention or because they do not wish to see you happier than them.

Hell, is having to deal with pretentious people.

you made my mind up for me
when you started to ignore me

10:43 PM;
and the camera clicked away

untouched impact

Today whilst lookin through
Profiles of those I-once-knew people
I suddenly forgot all traces of them
Like the simplest thing of how their voice
Sounded despite having decade long conversations
Practically talking to them non stop
From school to after school to home
So much for saying that they would make an impact on your life
When at the end of the day
They could be right behind me talking so loudly
And I wouldn't suspect a thing
Despite sharing growing up moments
Maybe they didn't make an impact on my life after all
To this extent that I no longer have any identification for them
So think again when you feel that
"Hey I think I made an impact on someone's life today."
Coz as short as 3 years from now and when you're no longer contacting each other
Can you confirm that you can remember every single thing bout them even from the way
They carry your bag, walk or even sound like
I can honestly say I don't..
My memory knows what to shred and what to bother storing

And my oh my some of those peeps
Have become a true camera whore
Literally and yesh without the camera
They are just plain whores
(I just love the word whores.How it makes your mouth in an O shape.Just whorish)
As I was saying,its obvious they have lost their morals and ethics
But to begin with, they never had any did they
So I say be merry with your life
Coz there'll be a whole line of people laughin at you
When you are bruised and fallen
And I won't be there coz I simply choose not to know you
I'm no hypocrite as I show what I feel
Do you do that or are you just all smiles and fakeness?

6:04 PM;
and the camera clicked away

There has been a rift in the waters
Or should I say in the papers recently
Bout how blogs are the next route
To fame..and well once you get to the
So called best blogspot it's nuthin
They said her blog provided sex escapades
From what I read.. romance novel provide more sexual stimulation
I'm serious, they label it as a sex blog
And what I expect is some sex stories
But no just like an ordinary blog
Wait a boring dusty textbook is more of what it is
I've come across an unlabelled blog
Which I have to say "Whoa,this is a soft porn blog"
But that girl in the paper.. i think its just a cry for media attention
Who the hell goes to the newspaper.. publishes your pictures but not name
There is no link..u don't wish to embarrass your parents?!
But your effing face is on the paper..
Discreet is not your main aim girl
And if you say nude photos are a form of art
We have the museums and theatres and well
What's art when its free.. thats more like preview porn
Even porn has a price to pay.. yours..just the electricity bills we pay
For the use of the computer and it goes right to the government
Imagine your father looking at yours photos
Might as well you walk around naked in the house
Even when there are guests..same difference ain't it?

3:44 PM;
and the camera clicked away

TGIF

4 hrs of sleep
Submission of report (like finally!)
A special special treat


need i say more?

*gloats like pufferfish*
floating floating.. snigger snigger
5 freaking years baby!

Lunch..Shoppppingggg
School
Dinner
More shoppingg
And I can say I'm effing sleepy right now
But we're planning a movie marathon
My apologies if I wave the white flag in 5 mins
Wake me up when its all over
Whatta friday..

10:27 PM;
and the camera clicked away

Mister Steel A.

Today he decided to throw a tantrum
Scared and at the same time irritated me as well
I had no idea what had happened coz last night he was fine
But today he just refused to acknowledged me
Keep silent in the morning
The first ever silent treatment when i specifically
Didn't request for one
Infact i wanted him to acknowledge me of any incoming events
So there i tried making him not giving me the silent treatment
And finally after 4 hours of silent treatment
He gave in and he finally vibrated
Thank god

Meet my Mister Steel Appeal

1:12 PM;
and the camera clicked away

overly bruised

it just continues doesn't it
1 day isn't enough
never change
why did i bother and place myself in such vulnerability
its heavy with all these emotional weight

10:41 PM;
and the camera clicked away

to come so far & fall short

a day with too many buttons pushed
nothing to fall back on is too much
nothing at all
nothing to even those who are supposed to catch you
the list that was once so long is as good as a burnt paper
it's worst than broken pieces

10:25 PM;
and the camera clicked away

unexplained

why is it that guys can easily ask for a fuck
without a twitch in their eyes to a girl they barely know
but have trouble keeping eye contact to confess a feeling to a girl

is ego the answer to this mystery?

7:53 PM;
and the camera clicked away

i'm a mess, you're a disaster



mr & mrs smith is one hellva kick ass show
i have to admit
they look compatible despite
earlier saying that brad pitt
was the perfect match for jennifer aniston
i still find angelina jolie intimidating
but i think brad pitt is able to handle her
like i said it was a good show
maybe coz i went in without any expectations

batman better do a good job
coz my expectation for it has sky rocketed

11:18 PM;
and the camera clicked away

dejected

what good is a comment when all it's gonna get is ignorance
in this country
"speak your mind" is just words
and just like words
it gets forgotten over the dusty sands
so the next time someone says
speak your mind
understand the meaning of it first
before you say it coz
all talk no action is the ugliest character to ever have

peer pressure is getting to me

8:40 PM;
and the camera clicked away

40 kinds of sadness

how you can be so attached to a person through words and nothing else
no touch
no looks
no winks
and no smiles
i'm gettin lots of those these days
coz i finally gave them a chance to build a door on my wall

when you rub people the wrong way in the past
and when people look at you because
you are their topic of discussion
its so simple for them to insult your physical appearance
ironic isn't it when at first you thought the person looked fine
but when things smashes against a barbwire
you're appearance is all that's left of you to be judged

7:45 PM;
and the camera clicked away

living up to black magic .

10:19 PM;
and the camera clicked away

they called him zephyr

once a pilot told me

"Working my ass off to be where am i was worth it.
The shite i had to go through was undescrible but when you're up there, cutting your way through the clouds and being closer to the stars than the majority you don't ever want to come down you have no idea how I felt like screaming on my very first flight. I didn't catch a single wink cause i didn't want to miss out anything and till this day I still feel the same as that very first flight i had."

his eyes spoke eternity as he told me this
you could hear the joy in his voice
and how this man relating to something he adores
became a boy who just took his first rollercoaster ride

i wished i was as lucky as him
i wanna be cutting through the clouds too.

10:11 PM;
and the camera clicked away

heaven walker

and when the last thing
she might have said to you
was an amazing compliment
you will forget all the bad memories
forget the things that might have
made an open wound
you will look forward to see her tomorrow
and remember making a connection

when you get to walk the world
in someone else's shoes
you will realise and learn to accept
that you had it better
that you have to learn to be contented
you have truckloads of uncountables things
and thats when you realise that your life
is so easy and simple so be happy
coz thats what your parents are mainly aiming for
and i wanna be grateful for everyone i've connected with
i wont deny that it was worthwhile when we connected
but doesnt it make you happy to realise you've bonded
that somehow that person is somehow alright
and today i will go to sleep and say it out loud
i am contented..i am happy.. at this moment
and thank you to the heaven walker

no more lies please.. no more..just try

1:34 AM;
and the camera clicked away

different levels

This afternoon I had a lil conversation with my dad

Dad: "Why u got so many projects when its the first week of school."
Me: "Its not the first week of school,its the second and well its ending since today is friday."
Dad: "Are you sure your second week?! Why so fast? I still think its the first week."
Me: "No dad its the second coming third week already."
Dad: "I think you recheck your calendar..it cannot be."
Me: "Okay."

Because this man pays my bills and let me live in his comfy house in a comfy bed though in a room color i detest i chose to ignore a futher argument.

3:57 PM;
and the camera clicked away

rigidity

there are so many times when
i just feel like going all out
putting myself on the line
to get what i want
then the thinking process comes along
and im back to square one which is
leave everything to fate
which has been strongly flaked by my friends
that i'm a wimpy cracker
coz just like a cracker
im so afraid of breakin to pieces
i dont take enough risks in life to look back
to say been there done that
but stuck instead with the what if
the what if which is one major pain in the ass
it tortures you and put mirages in your brain
plays ping pong with your heart and
leaves you in the trash to rot
rejection and the regret of what if
it would be better if i could just overcome them

something to ponder over
how did sarcasm come about?
i consider myself pretty sarcastic
i simply love sarcasm and sometimes i can't control the urge
it just slides out of my mouth
i have no idea whom i inherit it from
which maybe explains why i like Chandler from friends
i have to add his sarcasm has more punch
but then again im an amateur
though too much sarcasm can be a turn off
then again thats a contradiction
i happen to be a walking one too

7:20 PM;
and the camera clicked away

walking with an arrow shot in the head

Shakira's new music video = horny orang minyak woman

Translation : orang minyak is a legend bout this man covered in oil, black oil that is who goes around scaring mortals.

I have no idea how when you are sleeping
Dreams come and it comes in bundles
Meaning you dreamt bout your crush
Then next you dream bout ex friend
And many others in just one night of rest
And how is it you can dream being in your crush's house
When you have not even been there

6:33 PM;
and the camera clicked away