crestfallen

Just in the spur of a moment
How much what comes out of a human's mouth
Can make such a difference
And it was just then that you wished
You could turn back and avoid it all

There's alot of things I can explain
I can't explain the facade smiles
When it can get so low during those nights
Why there's a wall
When actually your breathing could
Break it down and simmer to dust
It's so tough watching everyone
In the end she feels so crestfallen
Nothin will make it go away

12:48 AM;
and the camera clicked away

=)

Today I wanted to write how much I missed someone
And it turned out to be crap
So I backspaced everything
And I am just gonna publish and say
What my intention was

Therefore..
Today I missed Dan the most
I miss our truly expensive conversation
So if you're reading this
Please book a ticket here
Coz I need my yearly dosage of you
Thank you *curtsy*

11:03 PM;
and the camera clicked away

forgotten

If i look around
And pay attention to the details
It can get a tad intimidating
Sometimes I feel I've had enough
Of something I don't have

I know Mum's been in my room
When my cable box shows
I've tunned in to Channel 4 and 39
I know Dad's been in my room
When my cable box shows Channel 22,23
I know my lil niece has been here
Coz its shows Cartoon Network..

12:00 AM;
and the camera clicked away

effing monsters

Yesterday I almost died
Because a turd in my class
Couldn't stop coughin
He pissed the hell out of me
Coz he CHOSE to cough when the
Tutor was talking
And the moment the tutor stopped
He stopped coughin too
And today he still kept coughin
And I feel sick already
Because the tutorial room
Ain't that big
And that turd does not have the
Brains to use at least his hand whilst coughin

Somehow he coughs when its during
Those good tutorials
When it comes to a stick up the arse tutorials
He's quite as a mouse..basketttt
Did i mention he sounds like monster
Getting a hard on after he stops coughin
*aurhhh ahhh aurghhh ahhh*

but..but..
but i will learn to
Tolerate these imbeciles monsters

5:28 PM;
and the camera clicked away

dead

I just got back from TP Jam & Hop
Well kinda crap..
Pug Jelly was super cute
And Erik just had to be there
Like I didn't see enough of him at China Black
Bumped in Gavin whilst I was leavin
And well simpang all da wayyyyy

Plus I'm farkin screwed coz
I scratched my freakin Toy
Farking rims were so badly scratched
I'm so farking screwed i tell ya
All because I needed to pee
Freaking hell..
I just realised i cut my finger
Whilst running my finger through the scratch
Yesh imagine how bad the scratch it..
Shitttt...
My first scratch..greeeaattt...

2:06 AM;
and the camera clicked away

encumber

There are times
When you're just by yourself
And you start thinking
You come to realise
You've got alot to say
But when the time comes
It was as though
You brain is as useful as a paperweight

How is it that I can want something so much
And yet not want it at the same time
Is this what they define as fickle minded
Or did I not truly want it in the first place

It wasn't the smile that did it
It was just the intense glare he once held

8:05 PM;
and the camera clicked away

farking messed up

Let's just say
I can't take some things anymore
I can't retreat to nowhere
Everything's too much for me to take
It's messed up
Just so farkin messed up
From one issue to another
It never seems to stop
Of all things
I had to be cursed with this sort of shit
I don't see it happening to other people lives
Just mine.. just farkerlicious mine..


The act is gettin old
And it's getting tiring

9:48 PM;
and the camera clicked away

iwtbss

The truth can be so difficult
Together with the facts of life

Whether or not
I stand by the believe
That people don't change
They stay as childish and ignorant
Thinkin that they own the world
When the world just wants to spit them
But I do hope you're happy

10:35 PM;
and the camera clicked away

Missing

I was about to whine
About having to be grouped
With a total moronic freak

But if you to sit down and really think
Whining gets you nowhere
It only makes you more exhausted
And I'm not bothered to entertain
People like him coz
Why hold grudges over a freak like him
Can you imagine we're doing a project together
And I've only spoken to him twice
My project's lookin like a flop
Yeah it's not fair
But deal with it

I just don't know
I'm all how do you say
Not myself..
I know what's botherin me
But I feel so stupid
If I just say it out loud
It makes me look pathetic
It's not helpin I know
About everyone crusades
But just..
I don't know
This is just a passing moody phase
I'll be better tomorrow..

10:44 PM;
and the camera clicked away