..unsweetened..

4 words for the day
I am so very screwed
Ok fine that was 5
Seriously I am not in distress
When my exams are on monday

Pinky there isn't a day
I wished things were so easy
How fun it was back then
When we got to know each other
And everything seemed so easy
It's tough without some people
Who have been there for you all your life
But be thankful that she was part of your life
You have memories and you got the chance to say goodbye
It's sometimes difficult to look to the future alone
Without her by your side
And she has done her part in believing you
It's time you believed in yourself
Trust me..it isn't easy
But it would be easy one day
On one very fine day
*hugs*

10:09 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..bummer eye candies..

Just great the day I choose to
Wear my hair in a mess
And not bother bout the stupid curls
Clothed myself in a larger than usual size tshirt
Together with my new shoes
It rains..not only that
I bumped into so many eye candies too
It's amazing how many of these good lookers
Come out to play when it rains
And not to mention look so good in their keep warm attire
Note to self..
When it rains..wear a cap..

I hate having tomorrows
Coz when I lose the motivation to study
I say oh there's always tomorrow
And tomorrow comes and goes
And not one zilch gets stored in my brain
I am so screwed this semester
Less than a week to go and you see me having loonnggg breaks
Urgh urgh urgh..

Daymit assignments are wayyy fun than cramming for exams

3:33 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..closer to you..

Closer to you is on repeat mode
It's getting to me

You're my wonderwall
Maybe I need you afterall

But it seems that
Everyday I'm getting further away from you

I need to hear you breathing
Coz it's getting too quiet around me

11:51 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..whoopdedo..

What goes around comes around
How true..
Yep at the moment you may feel so pissed off
That revenge is the number one thing to do
But over time you learn to let go things
Because whilst you are busy thinking ways of killing that someone
They are probably laughing their buns off
So everything takes time
Wait and watch how things fall into place
Or literally how people fall flat on their faces
I'm such a farking sadist but hey at least I admit it
Such sweet revenge..ignorance ahhh

It amazingly lame to judge people without knowing them
Unfortunately I usually do to have prove that
They do indeed suck afterall..
Sometimes self assurance is the best medicince
Besides my all time favourite --> laughter

4:59 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..bugger off..

Usually when I'm sleep before it's dark
It means I'm cranky, grumpy and pissing off
Or just plain tired which then makes me
Cranky, grumpy and pissing off
So don't come into my room
And make so much noise
Coz it's MY room
Don't switch off the aircon
Because I'll get even more cranky when I'm hot
Don't use my computer and play music
Coz I might just make music with your head and my fist
Then don't leave my room door ajar
Coz I don't like people peeking into MY ROOM!
Then pls have the courtesy of giving me some ventilation
When you switch off my aircon
And please switch off the computer because it's too farking glaring
And lastly there's a reason why I lock my room
It plainly means DO NOT COME IN!

Tonight it's my chair against the door..

To make me more pissed off
I come back to my room all in a mess
My things are NOT in the original place
And why are there so many of YOUR farking wires in my room
Call me selfish or whatever
It my room..
And oh my gosshhh please throw the food wrapper
Since you after all ate my food found in MY ROOM
*Screams*

1:31 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..ribena makes me happy..

Breaks are waaayyyy fun
Yesterday starbucks
Today MacDonalds
I guess everyone was broke from yesterday's indulgence
Caramel Frap is still my lip licking lolly

Dinner at simpang bedok
Milo Dinosaur the best invention ever
Bert crashed in my room for awhile
He snapped so many photos
That my room probably looked like
Lightning is solely within the radius of my room
From the outside..
And for 3 mins all I saw was white dots
But its Oookayy..

10:29 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..labyrinthine..

against all odds would she ever be fully satisfied
a place can seem so claustrophobic
and there's where she buried in
it seems so far that it was beyond her reach
she's waited and watched it picked everyone but her
and she's left to question why isn't she the one
beneath smiles and joy she can't forgive the thing she wants most
maybe sorry is the hardest word afterall

11:29 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..18 till I die..

Last few hours of being 18
Hmm..18 has been tiring

It early..
I might indulged in some sleep

10:48 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..one last cry..

Just what am I doing wrong

Why it is so difficult

And so easy for some

I'm envious

11:12 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..orgasm..

I bet I caught your eye with that topic
Well I was just wondering
Or at least Ashley and me were wondering
I have no idea how we got to this topic
But yeah did you know no one can actually describe
An orgasm..ok ok fine why am I writing about this
Well I'll just continue
Like I said no one can describe an orgasm
I read somewhere people say an orgasm
Is like a explosion
What the heck?
First of all..how the hell do u have an explosion in your body
Unless yeah you went through it
Uhuh yeah I'm pretty sure being blown up
Is such a thrill
I think it's like some kind of satisfying release
I don't think orgasm should be describe as an explosion
Maybe those exploded people did get hit at their G spot
Ahh well
But yeah it's amazing no one can describe to another person
How an orgasm is like
So when someone asks you what's an orgasm is like
Good luck..and please don't say it's a explosion

An old flame arises

9:27 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..unpredictable..

There are just some days
You literally woke up on the wrong side of the bed
I got so cranky this morning because Gene called me
And we've not been a great company for each other
So we had a lil tiff
And other than that I was still shagged
And had alot of things on my mind
Day didn't start out that great

Then later he called again
It's so hard not breaking down
Since I was going out lunch with my class mates
But yeah the company was great
And I was pretty much back to myself

It's so difficult holding on to something
That is as fragile as glass
And while it slips
All you can do is watch it
Break into a million pieces

So I've given up holding on to that glass
And I'm letting it break into pieces
I'll get cut and I will bleed
But I'll get over it somehow
It's over..I've had enough

I got a few surprises today
First was my decision with Gene
I didn't know where that came from
Next I receive a grreeeaattt letter
And I bumped into my ex somewhere totally unexpected
It was the last thing on my mind of bumping into him
And I stumbled out as fast as I could

What would you do when you meet your ex
The one whom refused to talk to you
After the difficult break up
The one whom you were thinking
What the hell was I thinking getting together with him

I knew I had to get out of the place as soon as I could
And you couldn't help but be reminded
Of what you tried so hard to forget
When it all comes back from just one look at him

Gosh it's so tiring from the work school's
Been piling me up with
And dealing with you
And I have to give you a miss at this moment
Coz everything's sucked out the living daylights out of me
And you're the last thing I need right now

Whatta day..*sigh*

9:59 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..MOTHER IN LAW..rearrange it --> WOMAN HITLER

Been caught up with alot of project deadlines
Unfortunately sad to say
I still have 2 more to go
And it's the exams
Sheesh so many things goin on at the same time
Time blardy hell flies man

Well it should fly when you're in school
Till night falls and u go home
Do more work before headin to bed
And doing the same thing the next day

Karen came over on Sat and yesterday
She comes in the afternoon
And goes back late late at night
The reason --> Project
I'm so shagged but hey
It makes it easier with 2 brains than 1
Yesterday's deadline was madness
I think the system crashed
I couldn't test out my codes..

It's less than a month to go before
I can meet my fun pepo at the activity centre
Finish what I started and start this whole madness
All over again next sem

Oh oh oh Birthday Shoutout to Foo Xiao FayeIn other words..
Happy Birthday my silly smelly Eeeyyoorreee!
Miss ya babe.. haha

Alrights..the stomach calls..
Laters..

9:51 AM;
and the camera clicked away

..you just down right suck..

Sometimes guys as group members can be such an fucker
They think they are always right
Just becoz I'm in IT and I'm girl
It doesn't mean that I'm useless
I hate egoistical guys
They are so moronic
When you doubt them to reconfirm
They raise their voice
And look at you as though I'm wasting their farkin time
And in the end, you get farkin slammed in the face
Coz I was right and you were wrong
I'm so sorry I bruised your farking ego
Why don't you just go back in time
When women weren't treated equally
And maybe for once you would seem smart!

You don't have the fucking right to shout at me
Don't question my work
When I was burnin my ass the whole day in school
And doubt that I did nothing and what i did was rubbish
When you weren't even there
You apparently had to attend to something
Probably fucking out your own brains and it dropped down to ur asshole
And yes face it, you couldn't solve the problem
And I did..
Lastly why are you asking help from me
You're all smart and wow aren't you
I'm a girl remember..a useless girl who's a free rider
Moronic asshole jerk
Free rider my ass..

On the other hand, after a shitful day
I see a package on my table
It was a beauuuttifull necklace from Gene
Absolute rapture
Gene's the reason why I'm not givin up just yet
On the male species..

12:46 AM;
and the camera clicked away

..overworked..

I'm so exhausted right now
I could just crash but
I just won't have a good sleep
Coz my projects will come into my dreams
And make me all paranoid
Then I'm even more exhausted than before

School's pretty much my home this past few weeks
Been stayin back till they chase us out
Yet I come home,
Scribble a bit here and there
And the same thing happens again the very next day

I even had to cut out some activities
I enjoy so much and I didn't drag
Meeting people and interacting with them
Gosh I miss those pepo's so much
They funny and well they are cute as hell
I'll be back..soon..

It's been ok
It's easier because I am literally drown
With assignments and other whatnots
It's the same with him for work
We talk for like half and hour or even less
It has come to that
And I guess pretty soon
We won't even be talkin anymore
I hope it won't come down to that
Maybe things would chill down in a couple of weeks
And he promised to be back here..soon..

Nothing comes easy
Actually some things do come easy
Just that we take it for granted
Or we're too distrated focusing on our difficulties

I'm really really shagged..

11:09 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..eye-scream topped with eyeball juice..

I'm feelin a lil wacky right now
I think it's the tonnes of eye-scream
I just indulged myself into

Hey hey at least i'm feelin much lifted
Ok that sounded weird
Pervs might think I'm talkin about using a new bra
What am i blabbering..??

I've done nothin much today
Except wait aimlessly for my moronic group members
To send me their projects
Blardy morons..it's almost 9 pm and i've still not received anythin
Screws $^%$#^Y^$@% Idiots

You know the more I open my eyes to see my ex crush
The more I've disgusted by him
He's such a slacker
Not that i'm not
I am..at times
But yeah you can slack for ur own project
But if it includes other people you gotta be responsible
Some people are so self centred..
Oh crap i just realised i got 7 missed calls
4 totally different numbers from god knows who
As I was saying..
Actually its embarrassing to admit he's an ex crush

You know actually i don't have anythin
Much to say in this post
Just that i think i'm a lil high right now

Gene said he saw a girl who looked like me
I'm farkin jealous..I'm gettin paranoid

8:44 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..to hell with stares..

When you actually voice out what's on your mind
It can seem to different or at least sound so different

I didn't realized that when I talk about you
I smile
When I reminisce about how we met
I look far away with dreamy eyes
When people ask how we spent the last night together
I blush
And when people ask who makes you cry and at the same time laugh
I know it was you

I took a long bus ride today
Ok it took an hour and though it was crowded with foreign workers
I remembered what you said
Only you can make yourself uncomfortable
So I look out the window and
I wanted to get up and sing out loud
And I did..in my mind that is
I admired the true beauty of nature
I observed what people did in their car
Not realizing that you can't have much of privacy at the traffic light

His parents called to have dinner together
It was planned since yesterday but got cancelled
And I don't think I could go through with it
I know I'll end up worse than before
Be it good or bad
I just don't think I can handle it

Part of me wants to forget everything
And pretend that it didn't mean a thing
That I have to move on
And thinking of you everyday isn't helping
But on the other hand
I actually fell for this man
This great man who made everything seemed so simple
How he knew exactly what to say and when
It was straight out from a fairytale
How I never did one feel out of place
But tell me am I crazy to let go such a beautiful human
Because it seems that way
And I don't understand why I can't seem to change my mind
That maybe we're perfect after all
But I'm erasing our happily ever after ending
I finally love someone and I'm letting him go
Am I a freaking sadist or something?
Am I such a pessimist that I can even watch myself be happy?

11:00 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..unbreakable..

Well what can I say about Friday
It was truly awesomeee..
A truly night out..

Caught The Cinderella Story( if thats what it's called)
Wanted to watch something else
I wasn't exactly in the mood for any lovey dovey stuff
But I have to say..the movie was nice..
That's what you get when you have low expectations
And at one point for the first time
I saw tears streamin down my face
I swear thank got it was in the middle of the show
Or else my friends would have seen it
I guess when you see sweet things
And the show played our song
I couldn't help but break down
Just reminded me so much of our past
And hell I thought I couldn't stop
I guess the tears were wayy overdued
Coz after that I felt so much better
It was like as if the whole world weren't lookin at me to crumble
At least I crumbled without anyone noticing
I just don't feel it's fair to ruin the mood for everyone
This is my problem and I'll get over it myself
Coz I brought this upon myself in the first place
Then we hung out for the longest time ever
Laughin our heads off
Complaining how unhumanistic some humans can be

Once in awhile you just go to let everything go
That's what exactly I did
And it makes things so much easier

Finally handed in my projects today
But becoz the lecturers have to much time
I sense more projects coming
But it's ok..it'll get my mind off some things
And like he said..he'll be back..soon..
Before you know it..he's back here again

Oh oh oh and I was such a freak today
I was waiting at the traffic light on the way back to school
And I saw a big colorful van
Only to realise there was a Ronald MacDonald inside it
A real one with the make up and red wig
I just burst out laughin
And before I knew it..Ronald looked up and gave me a big smile
It was freaking hilarious..might not be to you
But yeah it was totally unexpected
Ok ok I admit I have never met Ronald in person
And to see Ronald was really cute..hak..
Tell me when is it you get to see a Ronald in his cool hippy van
And givin a big smile at you
It's amazin how Ronald puts a smile on one's faces
Or at least on mine

I have been told a few times
That I'm literally have a few screws loose
And my laughin is actually entertaining
I never did get what people were sayin
Till I met someone who was like me today
He laughs at everything I say
Mind you..he laughs till he looks like he has asthma
And whatever I said wasn't really that funny
It was though he was really tickled
Either that or I have not seen myself
The way I laugh so much till you can't hear my laughter
But yeah I saw myself in him and well
Finally I got what people meant
But it's nice to just chill with someone you don't know
And have the best time ever coz you didn't care
You didn't care if your blardy hair was stickin out
It was you..all of you..

24 hrs is actually a very looonnggg time
And so many things can happen
And yet it can seem so short sometimes

1:09 AM;
and the camera clicked away

..we'll sway..

I think love is truly a blind affair
I meant how many times have u realised
That when you look back at ur past crushes
You wonder what the hell were you thinkin
Why did it seemed that back then he was so great

I hung out with one of my ex crush
To find the biggest disappointment
He's not at all great
You're so bored when you talk to him
He's messy.. he's slouchy
And he just unbelieveable
The type where it won't be much of a loss
Even if the friendship doesn't work

Other thing i think i screwed my personal commitment
Oh well..
Daddee-O's not being too hard on me
He said I could always try again
*smyles*

School was whacked today
My class was so stressed we went mad
I'm dead seriously
We were getting along so well
Laughin till i got a freakin headache
Disturbin the shit out of everyone
That's what happen when you send us a shitloads of work

Gene went back today
Had dinner with his parents
And his mother is just as fun as his daddy-o
It did take off for a moment that he was leavin
I'm contented..
I won't ask for more coz
The one week he came back
Was the best 1 week of our lives
And I'm glad it was you babyy boyy

It was difficult watching you walk away
But you left me with the great memories i'll ever have
And I couldn't help but smile
When you look back and gave me kiss
I grabbed it with all my might
You're still the best I ever had
And I will always love you for that babyy boyy

11:58 PM;
and the camera clicked away

..i love you..

It's not fair
I'm so desperate for time
And yet I have to finish my projects on time
And leave Gene to wait till I'm done
Which was like 9pm today
When I could have gone lalaaaa with him since 4
Yesh I stayed back for 5 extra hours
To do crap
And guess what I still have another one comin on fri
Arrgghh
On a brighter side
I'm near finishing and yep
I finished a group project early
That project was waayyy fun
Stayed in school till 8-ish
But hey at least no worries till it's due

When you're the only lady in the group
With 4 decent non egoistical guys
The lady always gets what she wants

I'm so gonna look like crap toms
I'm planning not to sleep
Coz firstly I'm gonna spent every last moment with Gene
Even if he falls asleep
I want to be there when he's in lalaland
Nothin is impossible for my babbyy boyyy
If only it takes 1 hr to fly to anywhere in the world

10:09 PM;
and the camera clicked away