.......

I might as well crash and burn
Then maybe everything will stop
Or maybe not
If at this moment i don't even have a say
What difference will it make whether i'm here or not
I don't need this
I don't need this at all
But I don't have a say
So i'm nudged in between
And in the end i break down
Left with only myself and no one else
No one sees the tears but me

I wish I was emotionally stronger
Then it won't feel so stupid in the end

10:11 PM;
and the camera clicked away

it's..finally..friday..

Morning all
Once again i am stuck with a 3 hr break
Somehow it just makes me wonder that the school thinks
I have too much time to waste here
And how evil they can get is by
Making everyone i know start at 12
When my break ends
So i am the only twirp
Who has to come at 8 am
For an hour of lab and rot away for the next 3 hrs

So i guess i'll be bloggin most of the time in school
The only down side is i can't seem to work
Msn on some of the computer..
See what i mean by evil..
The school refuses to let me have any contact with the outside world

Dan's leavin soon..
I'm pretty bumped out about that
I hardly spent much time wit him this whole week
Coz if i'm not in school i'm be dozin off
No matter how hard i try i'll crash by 11 the lastest
Take for example last night..i crashed at 10.30
The earliest ever..and i'm up by 6..
So i'm lookin forward to spendin the next 3 whole days with him
I guess it's gonna get pretty packed coz it's the last week of hols
I don't know how Dan can work for 3 years straight without hols
I mean yeah he has hols..those normal ones like Xmas,Easter
This is his first 1 month vacation he applied for
Since he joined the company 3 yrs ago
Maybe that's why they gave him a month of paid leave..

Oh well..by the time i start workin
He has like 6-7 years of workin experience
Bleah..how slow can studyin get over here!

Right i gotta head to the bookstore
To further immerse myself in the geek land of IT
Laters all..

9:27 AM;
and the camera clicked away

..Hello World..

Right now i am stuck with a 3 hr break
How "lucky" of me
So if u were to do the calculation
My next lecture is at 6..
Damn u psychology..
I actually read my timetable wrongly
And took an unofficial break
Which resulted me in being late for tutorial
Now i have no more chance to be late
Or else i get debarred from the freakin subject
So in the end i missed a lecture

Thing was i went to the lecture hall to find it empty
But with only a lecturer sitting in the front
So then i ask where is everyone
And he says "You tell me"
So i checked my watch and it says 2.20
First of all i was late
I was expectin to find it packed
Then i confirmed whether it was the right subject
Turns out it's a year 3 subject..
When did i get promoted?!
Then to my horror i'm late for tutorial
And poor mr lecturer
Was left waiting for this non existant year 3's..
Poor guy he was very nice actually
Unfortunately i can't remember his face at this moment of time

Let's see..yesterday i crashed the moment i reached home
Which was 7..woke early to have breakfast with Dan
And apparently yesterday was meet the whole world day
Morning i bumped into Meiyi..she's a freshie..hehehe
Then lunch i bumped into Nursha and a few others at Long Johns
Then at psychology class Louis and Clint are there too

Wowhee this semester looks "fun"
I have 2 Java subjects
Need i say more
And i'm still doing networking
Blardy hell..and another dull subject
Say hello to mr database..
Daym it..
Dang i still have 2 hrs to go..

3:45 PM;
and the camera clicked away

....is.. it..too..much...

Sing.PerfectSmile.Tall.Fair.MediumBuilt.
NotTooHairy.GorgeousEyes.DarkHaired.
StrongBigArmsandHands.Older.Gentleman.Caring.
Sensitive.Loyal.Honest.Sweet.Reliable.NiceDressing.
EasyToTalkTo.Funny.Shy.Outgoing.Respectful.

School was a borreee
Daym computers were all so messed up
8am toms..bloody crap
Am sleepy already..
I wanna go back to florida daymit!!

9:23 PM;
and the camera clicked away

All good things must come to an end

I can't get to sleep
That's becoz i slept all the way in the plane
That's 15 hrs.. a few other hours of terrible plane food as always
School starts today..bleah
I have no idea who is in my new class
And my new subjects look like a major bore
I finally got pyschology as my extra subject
Other than that..i have donkey years for breaks
And thus i end feckin late..
Which doesn't look very fun goin home late

At the same time i'm hungry as always
And it doesn't look like i'm the only one
My whole family is up and hungry
But i've been hungry since 12

My trip was a blast of course
Such utter bliss which lasted for only 2 weeks
It's all becoz of school
If school opened later i would still be in Florida now
Daym it..
Bought lotsa stuff..which caused me to borrow an extra bag from Dan
I bought 3 shoes..a whole lot of t-shirts
I actually feel so bad buying so much
And i got a spongebob towel..hahaha such a freak i know..
Lotsa other junk too..like a mini hockey stick and puck
ID tags..those sorts..

Well my hunger isn't gettin any tamer
Why is McDonald's opened so late!
There's always a drive thru everywhere in florida
I always manage to cure my hunger there
And i've put on weight and gotten so darkkkk..
NnNooOOoo oh well what's done is done..

7:16 AM;
and the camera clicked away

Lost in the twilight

I'm fallin
I guess i'm still fallin for a boy
A boy who knows what he wants in life
And has a good grasp on his accomplisments
I smile when i hear things are on the rocks
Between him and his girlfriend
Gosh i'm such a terrible person
I'm fallin for those i once did not believe i could
And i'm not liking it one bit coz it's such a contradiction
I thought i was over him
Infact i've fallen for him for so long
I've probably crashed and burnt
And yet despite all this
My heart still races whenever i see him
At times i think he can see it
I could never look him in the eye
I'm so afraid of him knowin
But things would never go my way if he doesn't know
Then again he was nuthin close to what i wanted in a man..

3 hrs till fly time
I want to sleep so much
But i'll just get too cranky after 2hrs of sleep..
I look forward to meetin the man who keeps me sane

1:45 AM;
and the camera clicked away

Leaving on a jet plane

Layin on his bed
Amidst all the softness
She feels his presence comfortin her
Rockin her slowly into sleep
The covers warms her heart
She drifts in and out of sleep
Not wanting to forget this moment
Before her breathing slows
Finally she gets her first deep sleep in weeks

Bags are pretty much packed
No fair i got the smallest bag
Was wrestlin the bag to fit more things
Hopefully everythin's there..
Ouu just remember..comb..sheesh
Oh no camera charger, phone charger
Sunglasses..arrghh that's it i'm stealin a bigger bag

Toms is the day..
Wheet..Florida..wowhoo..DisneyLand..Yey!
All would be over and back in school before you know it
Wish me luck.. i'm touchin down back here on the mornin school starts..
Don't get it why Daddy-O didn't let me just skip school a few days
I need rest..then again i always need rest..heh

See you guys in a few weeks!

2:12 AM;
and the camera clicked away

Harry Potter

Just to waste some time
I shall blog bout Harry Potter's third film
First of all it wasn't to long compared to the other 2
If I'm not wrong the others were 2 hrs plus
Well this was 2 hrs on the dot

Other than that..it was not too bad
This third one somehow has no connection to the other 2
So no worries for people who hasn't seen the first 2
You'll be just fine..not much confusion
They talk pretty much in this one
Probably to explain what is goin on
A few thrills and spills..
Fun where Draco Malfoy gets thrashed
Great to see how evil peopl gets their retribution
But Draco looks much better wit the gelled up hair
Shall not revealed much for those who have not seen it..

Other than that all of them are pretty grown up
Hermonie's lookin good..
Ron's not too bad but at the London premiere he looks gross
Potter's pretty much the same
And that kid who always gets picked
The fat one who's always so unfortunate
Well he lost lotsa weight..wasn't sure it was him at first
The bad side was no sight of Oliver Wood/ Sean Biggerstaff
Dumbledore was different of course coz the fella died
But they make the new one looks pretty similar

Somehow i see some similarites between LOTR and Harry Potter
The characters i mean..where dobbie i think the name
That small weird lookin creature..yeah like's gollum
Then the third one..the i forgot the name..
They look like the Ringwraiths in LOTR
With the black tornish no face thingees..

Overall..compared to Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen
Harry Potter's more enjoyable..well cool
In terms of wizardry..how things are controlled by the touch of a wand
Besides sometimes you need a lil magic to inspire oneself..

12:00 AM;
and the camera clicked away

Meet the evil aunt

To release myself from boredom
I went to HMV to get myself a few DVDs
Which resulted me in spendin 100 over bucks there
I have no idea why I bothered to spend money that I have
And hell I sure didn't know Mickey Mouse VCDs were quite expensive
Because i'm a greattt aunt.. haha i got her 2 VCDs..

So then i caught Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen
And after the movie was over..
All i could see over the rows of seats were uniforms
And the atmosphere was so schoolish i tell ya
Giggling.. feels like a school excursion..

Show was ok.. nuthin great
I think a much better show would be her other new movie
Mean Girls..

Earlier this mornin
I was hanging out at the front of my house with my niece
And she was grumblin so much for bubbles
Yesh bubbles..those soapy thingees
So i gave her bubbles and she got so happy
Yesh it's very easy to please kids sometimes
So then she goes runnin around and forgets there's a slope
There she goes crashin and all the soap spilt on her
As usual..being a bad aunt..
I laughed at her
Don't worry..she just fell on her pampers butt
And knowin she was the butt of my laughter
She showed me her angry face..
Which made me laugh even more..

5:00 PM;
and the camera clicked away