Opinions are like assholes, everyone's got one

Lookin around
And havin to see some things
Just shows that maybe it's true
I'm the biggest loser in the end
Despite what happens
Everyone has got something goin on for them
But not me..

It's not easy to change that aspect in your mind
That bothers me so much
But if i truly believe
Then maybe one day my mind will believe it too
I hope it's soon..
Very very soon..
I don't need this to worry me..
And i don't need it to feel like
I'm carryin the world on my shoulders
Like i said..I've given up on it

I guess in the end it pays to be a good person
But some people have all the luck

1:17 AM;
and the camera clicked away

Meet my biggest enemy - me

Sometimes all you need to do is just
Say what you want
No goin around the bush
No erm i don't know..erm not sure
Coz when you speak straight from your mind
It comes out to be the most beautiful thing
And if you can't speak your mind
It's the same thing as you are not being yourself
Saying what you want straight from your mind
Makes things less complicated and also
Everything works out in the end somehow
Sometimes what you say without thinking
May be the biggest mistake you ever made
But wouldn't keeping it all in and bottling it up
Eat you whole emotionally
Of course what you say may lead you to be the butt of other people's joke
But if you believe that what you dream is what you want
Then at the end of the day you've only got yourself to answer to
Because in the end you are just your own enemy

2:08 AM;
and the camera clicked away

Why is perfume referred to as toilet water?

Ever had a song
That was just released
And the moment you hear it
It reminds of someone you lost
Someone who left you years ago
Not a song that recaps what you felt
But just in a way that you take notice of nuthin else
Ignorant to the surroundings
And you're caught in your own deep thoughts
What you went through just came down to that one song
You can't help but just smile
And tears of joy came runnin down your cheeks
Tears of joy tears of sorrow
Who could tell, I couldn't either
All i know is that I think he wrote that song for me

I'm giving up on the one thing i thought that was everything.
Period.

1:44 AM;
and the camera clicked away

LIVED is DEVIL spelt backwards

I look forward to spending the night with you
How warm u keep me throughout the night
The soft touch against my skin
And Oouuhh the smell is just right
Morning comes and i feel u around me
I can't bear to leave u after what we went through the night before
Rainy days and i yearn for your warmth
You ease my mind, you ease my body
And tonight i look forward to ur gently soft touch

Oooouuhh i just luurvvee the change of new bed spreads!
Now now i'm talkin bout them bedspreads
And just what were u thinkin off.. jeez.. heh

And the guy in Stacie Orrico's Stuck and I could be the one is so hot
There's somethin bout him i lioke..
Mysterious yet playful at the same time gorgeous..heh

12:18 AM;
and the camera clicked away

Wire trouble

Grr..i'm gettin so pissed right now
I can't find the damn wire to connect to my camera
What the feck is it!!

Arrgghh i hate it when ppl use my things
And when i ask them where is it
They simply say i don't know
Well fark i don't know coz u were the last farkin person to use it!
Sheesh i've turned my room upside down to find it
And it's still nowhere to be seen
Godammit..stupid wires
Haven't they heard to telepathy..
Or infrared..but the damn camera near the computer
And it gets connected straight away
Sometimes technologies suck!
Big time..and i'm late
Just ggrreeattttt!
GGrrrrrrr..

3:11 PM;
and the camera clicked away

All New

Arrggh why does it always look different
After u have published it..
So feckin irritatin..see the pic's all disfigured
Sheesh.. darn it.. hate it when that happens
And now my no banner script doesn't werk
Hmm okies i'm too darn lazy

If you guys can't see the words in the pics
Here's what it actually says..

In life, one can find itself in a tragical situation of loneliness
Compared to the beauty of sadness
Till the end of time,
All one can do is dream the impossible
Being whisked away into the twilight
To the simplest approach that sparked the attraction
Sensing the hidden cries without a word
Found in the arms of an unknown familiarity
Sensitive to the soft electric touch
Sweeten by the very lips that meet hers
And the one thing she wants is the one thing
That perhaps is insubstantial..

Creative juices sometimes flow in the midst of all the silence..

10:54 PM;
and the camera clicked away

Misanthropist

Ever had a day where all the things around you
Seemed so bloody irritating
From someone talking..
To someone who has dirty hands
I have no idea why i'm so irritable today
It's days like this when i understand when people say
Silence is golden
Sometimes wouldn't it be nice if for one day
The whole world was quiet

Pretty impossible ain't it
Cmon think about it
Everyday..there is bound someone who is happy
Someone who's blasting their radios to sing along to the fav song
Or thos feckin irritating motorcycles
Who's engine sound like they are squeezin every single energy
Out of their motorbikes..

I've always told myself
Never expect anything back..
Nothin i mean..becoz when you do
All they ever do is let you down
There have been so many times when i do a good deed for someone
And in return i get nuthin..zilch..
I'm not expecting anything but a simple thanks would do
Sometimes life has a rude awakening
Not everyone was brought up with the thank you's and please
Or much more..morals and ethics..all they every do is take
Take take take and take..
Never givin or thinkin what their actions lead to
Not only do they take..they take everythin for granted
And when things don't go their way..they blame another person
So feckin typical..
Maybe in the future when it's time to move out
I should look for a place where its miles from other people
Just live on my own and be a grumpy spinster
I'll bake and get myself so darn fat and all wrinkled up..
Wouldn't that be so very nice..

6:11 PM;
and the camera clicked away

Life is never predictable

It's amazing when i have to so much to say
Minutes before i crash
The next mornin comes and i forget every single thing

I'm feelin so very bored
But i still refuse to go out with a bruised lip and jaw
The bruises are at locations where it looks more like
I went thru a fight than an operation..

Seriously..he won't call
Why would he..it's not like anythin happened
Get it in your head
He's probably attached or even more..married
Cmon on look at him..
You're makin yourself so miserable for no apparent reason
I bet he's forgotten about you already
He wouldn't even be in the position you are now
And in the first place..it was your fault
You want to be with someone so much that
You make yourself so infactuated with him
You hardly know him..what more get his name right..

2:17 PM;
and the camera clicked away

Borrowed Heaven

I got treated to a large pizza upon the removal of my stitches
And at one point i thought i was gonna barf
But it's all good
Yep 5 days of jaw clamping is not easy task
For eating disorder people i guess it's an ordinary feat
But not me.. i was goin nuts eatin stupid "soft food"
Soft food my arse..more like vomit..
And the criteria of nuthin spicy..hot or cold or hard
Example..apples are hard..and even bread
Imagine bread..geez but i bugged the nice nurse
And she gave me bread soaked in milo..yum

Yup i got treated real nice by the nurses..
I sweared i had no idea how i sounded while talkin to them
Pretty retarded of course..with a bruised lip..swollen and clenched jaw..
Hah we talked from rebonded hair to everythin under the sun
I was pretty surprised the nurse weren't so grumpy
But the woman who took off my stitched
Sure woke up on the wrong side of the bed today
She was so dang rough and gosh i spat out so much blood..
Hmm the young doc kept comin over to "check" on me
Heh..i'm beginning to find him quite cute but too bad..
Today was the last time i'm gonna see him
But he gave me a nice big smile today..

I couldn't get to bed last night
Coz i got too excited to 1) get those stupid stitches off
And of course 2) see my cute doc..hehe
Or maybe it was just the steroids they keep pumpin into me
Was happily singing in the dark with the earphones plugged in
I still blame the steroids..ouuuu i miss the doc already..
Dang..it's the time he usually comes around for his checks..
Hmmm it's ok..i'm still on cloud 9..my very own borrowed heaven

I gotta give props to the nurses and of course my family
I was treated super nice..but maybe coz i looked like a chipmunk
Gettin ready for winter..and yesh thanks to both ID and Dan
ID came everyday..and the first thing he said to me..
"Stop stuffin ur mouth already!"
When i couldn't possibly opened them..haha so i must have looked quite bad
And Dan thanks for the sunglasses..they are gorgeous but babe i got a swollen jaw
Not eyes..Hahaha alright u'll get to see them when i come over aighht

Yep yep i'm gonna visit Dan and more theme parks..
Wohoo..i'm going Florida for the summer..
DisneyLand here i come.. *dances around*

It's ok if ID made me so mad the last time..
People make mistakes all the time
He being there everyday and listenin to me crushin on the doc
Lettin me know i didn't look so bad
Guess my happiness was all he wanted to attain
I missed us..
He may not always be there..but he's always there when u need him
Thank you my superman..

PS Faye I wasn't talkin bout u =) ..thanks Dan!

3:15 PM;
and the camera clicked away

My last malfunction smile

Library sucked today..
Couldn't get any good books
But i managed 4..not too sure they'll be much of a company
And I'm still hungry from the last post..
*stomach growls*

Hungry hungry hungry

Op toms at 9am
So early..
At least it gets my jaw done aight
Wish me luck..
The thought of stickin needles in my mouth is a big no-no
Well better now than later..
I'll see u guys in 3 or 4 days..or even earlier..heehe
I can still whine and grumble..don't need my mouth in that area..

Still hungry..

7:50 PM;
and the camera clicked away

Like fingerprints, everyone's tongue print is different

I've been meanin to whine or be my grumpy self bout friendster testimonials
First of all i've had a couple of people
Whom i would say i don't quite fancy that much
I know them on the surface
And i don't like them already..
But i still say an occasionally hi when i bumped into them
So then these ppl make me just name them unlikeable
Make me wanna unlike them more..
They ask me to write them a testi..
I don't get it..why are u askin me to write u a testi
First of all i don't know u that well..
And secondly..it means something doesn't it
if i didn't write u a testi in the first place
Sheesh..i mean what's the point u want so many testimonials
It's not the quantity that matters..it's the quality..
what ppl freakin hell wanna write about you..
Ok so i "happily"write their ohh so important testi
Only to find that they didn't write one back..what the heck
Ok it's not like i expect anything but have the decency yar..
U make me write..now you write back..geez!
I love writing for ppl whom i know well to spend a
few moments to write a good word or two
But not these imbeciles who are so out to get so many testis..

Ok i'm cranky coz i'm hungry

Whilst waiting..
Last night i was goin through my old photos
I was lookin for a pic i could put on this nice photo frame i got
And gosh it brought back so much memories
It's amazin like i could remember what happened before and after i took that photo
Well not for all of them but certain ones..
Actually i have a love and hate r/s with my digicam now
I love the ability to see the pic straight away
But the pics are mostly kept in the comp
Like old cameras..u got the actual thing..i know in the future the pics gets
Discoloured and all crusty but i think it's quite fun
Waiting for the photos to get develop and seeing all the photos in one shot
Heck..maybe i'm just weird..and not to mention hungry..

8:16 PM;
and the camera clicked away

Age is strictly a case of mind over matter.If you don't mind, it doesn't matter

I wished i could believe that..
I could for a sec but then it all comes down to the age
Even if you could..other ppl could never understand
But i'll try..and i'll keep tryin..

Ahhh..Blogger has a new look..
I lioke..nice work..it's about time too

Gosh i have no idea what's wrong with all my tagboards
The first one screwed up and so i changed
And now the second one screwed up too
And i'm back to my old one only to find
That half my posts are gone and only old tags are left
Bahh! But at least better than seein some error crap..

And it's so feckin hot these days
Killer killer.. i'm havin a major pimple outbreak too
Keep perspiring..sucks even though i showered more than 3 times in a day..
I can totally see the water bill rising sky high

Ouu ouu gosh yesterday night tv was whoa..
First of all..Eye for a guy
I use to have the hots for Mark but seein what happened
I like Sivert..poor fella..seriously..what's the point in him winnin when the Mark fella is also goin..see what happens when they try to make a reality series here..
Bigggg flopppp..
And Rachel is such a BIMBO..gosh i thot i met the worse of the Bimbos
But hell she's the biggest bimbo..wait bimbo's are supposed to be good lookin
And she's not..
*evil thought just crossed*
It's good she fell while on the date with Sivert..that's what u get..heheh

Then Survivor..i have not been watchin this but since it was better than starin at white walls..
Rob looks like Dean Cain..ahhhh..but u know what i think he and Amber will break pretty soon..
I'm not being mean but they didn't look really happy or at least Amber doesn't
If it works well..well good for them but who knows..
I hate Big Tom..big my arse..and Jerri..big spoilt sore LOSER!
I don't believe she left just becoz she got booed..served her right
I'm still not over her votin Kel out in the Season 2..heh..

Ok this was a lame post but hell..it's mine..
Hmm i wondered what'll happened if you placed Rachel from Eye For a Guy on survivor
Probably vote herself out or something..who knows..she surprises the hell out of me..

I need to shower..AGAIN

8:21 PM;
and the camera clicked away

Arrgghh

I have just about given up on Blogger
Until now it refuses to publish my posts
Gobbles down my posts
Modifies my template..
Eats more of my html codes
Which explains why some things appear and some don't
Bleah…

So i have spent surfin thru lookin for other weblogs
Just to find them even more worse...
I don't understand the concept they use
They give me crappy templates
And don't let me modify
Arrghhhh...

Laters..

4:58 PM;
and the camera clicked away

Results..Oh-Oh..

Dang i'm so tired right now
Got a spliting headache..geez..
Headaches are like the worse man
Makes u go insane and real cranky
Maybe it's a sign i gotta crasshhhh.. realll soooonn

So Friday my results were out
Checked it in the morning but no news
So i happily headed out to JB..
So happily shoppin around
Bought 2 rackets.. last minute thing
Dad was more than generous..i just wanted to get 1
In the end we got 2..i think it's a sign he wants to play too..heheh
I still have no idea why i threw away my old rackets
Maybe coz i was too pissed back durin my badminton training days..
Then i got a bunch of SMS from ppl askin bout my result
Then was when all hell broke loose
Well not really but yeah i was goin crazy
Coz one i thing i didn't sign up for the sms results
I was too much of a wimp..
So on the way back i just stuffed in earphones and blasted my mp3
Dang the car ride back seemed like ages..

Then home..checked my results..
*beats of perspiration trickled down the sides of my head*
Amazingly how i can write an essay while dozin off...
So ok..the results..
I PASSED..woowheee...
Yep every damn 6 subjects
Thank gosh.. i was so scared i messed up
Considering how i studied the whole semester's work the night before
And Java wasn't my worse..can u believe it..one of my top..
I even managed to get an A for my extra subject.. *big smile*
Hahah yesh..i'm one relieved girl

Well that's about it and daddy-O hintin some trip.. YeY!

1:11 AM;
and the camera clicked away

Ta-da da Ta-da da

I can't seem to get enuff of Blue's breathe easy
And George Michael's Amazin..
Seriously how can George Michael be gay
Look at them tight jeans and his tight ass

Just had homemade pizza for brunch
I think it's been a looonnggg time since i had a real breakfast

And i think friendster is NOT a morning person
Everytime i log in on mornings..
They say this person has no friends and invalid users or worse of all
They are not connected to me in anyway when they are in my list
Sheesh..guess it's not only human's who's groggy in the mornin
Programs too..so we learnt something new today

Fact of the day:Programs are not morning friendly!

Yey it's raining..such nice weather..hope it stops soon
Headin out to town..wowheee..i think i haven't been to town
Since this whole year...

Ohh i got new glasses..it's about time
My old specs needed repair everyday
At the end of the day it's all looped sided..bah!
I was told my new specs looks very sunglasses..hahah

Been catchin up Faye these past few days
She's freakin hell hilarious too..
Always crackin me up since i met her..
And she doesn't even know i'm laughin at her silly antics..
She asked me whether fishes drink water..how do i answer such a question!
I miss miss miss her..

Ok headin out now..take care y'all!

12:18 PM;
and the camera clicked away

Ack~!

Arrgghhh stupid blogger ate my freakin long post
Damnit damnit
It eats my posts..then refuses to publish it..
Blogger..u suck..

So what happened today
I went to get my repaired retainers
Yesh..repaired
Coz apparently 2 weeks ago i was so stressed in my sleep
I broke my retainers whilst sleepin
The best part was that i got up to remove the broken pieces
And continue sleeping...
And the next mornin.. i woke up thinkin it was a dream..

So had to wait after collecting my retainers
Bout the clickin of my jaw
It awfully scares the shit out of me
Coz i have the paranoia of my jaw droppin
What happens is that when i halfway eatin
My jaw cramps and starts grindin against it's other
A sound that isn't very soothin when u can hear all the grindin in ur head

So i got refered to this young bloke
I was wishin so much he wasnt the bloke i needed to see
But hey it was..
I have no idea how to describe him
He seems not bad lookin but a lil weird and bad at the same time
I have no idea what i'm blabbering
So yesh he talked the talked and told me i gotta get my jaw done majorly
A direct shot to my heart...then i got interviewed by him
Which i think was for his personal reference than what was required on the paper
As does a comment like.."Ohh u're in IT..hmm then u must be darn good with computers..
Hey maybe u could fix my computer like how i fixed ur teeth..?"
I must say that was quite an original pick up line..but erm..maybe no..hahah
So i do what i do best..force a laugh and SMILE..the smile he apparently fixed..NoT!

Then i caught a movie..Jersey Girl
Surprisingly it was a good nice show..
Was expectin it to flop so badly but not too bad
Maybe i'm just bias coz Arwen..oops i meant Liv Tyler is in it.. hehe

Can anyone tell me which poly that Mark fella
From Eye for a guy..
Couldn't TP just hired a lecturer with hot bod
If it's to darn hard to get a good lookin lecturer..

Ok i'm too darn lazy to think of what i wrote earlier..
Credit to blogger..just "fantastic!"

12:43 AM;
and the camera clicked away